Confession [ Faded Dreams ]

[Moved from Myspace Blog]

Written; January 19, 2010 - Tuesday

" i'm your love, but you can find someone better for you

&& your loving is something that i'm a deal without . "

* sighs * Sometimes.... I feel like i'm sucha bitch.

And i feel awful about it, Yet i feel like What I'm doing is Right.

I know i've always hurted you, and yes! i did see how much you luv me.

But, We as Humans cannot choose who to Love.

L o v e , c h o o s e s U S .

Perhaps that is why.... Everyone has there own Love tragedy.

- The one you never married. <--- tats the 1 you pictured

w/ ur kids and a white picket fence House, u-know.. Picture prefect O.o

- The one you want, but could never Have. <---- tats the one who always,

had someone else and your always trying, but you'll always be #2

- The one Romeo and Juliet story Line. <---- tats the one your Parents said "NO"

I've been through that too many times, to know exactly why I'm Here.

Why? I'm still pacing back and forth, going in circles.

I'm Sorry that a mere simple girl like me, could Hurt someone so much.

I'm sorry that i ever made you felt that way. But, wait... was it really

Me who made you felt that way? Or was it Love choosing you.

It sounds all too familiar, because I [yes me] I've walked down

that path before too. It's pain like None in this world.

Hmoob call it " Tuag tsis Tu Siav " - Alive without a Heart Beat.

Hrm... If I was to really think about it. Iam very blessed to have been

Loved and Broken at the same time. It made me strong when i was weak,

and made me weaken, when i was too prideful. Dreams and Wishes

are there for us not to be sorrowful, but to be Hopeful.

And Iam still wishing on that One star, we once looked at together.

WISH BAND }" kuv ntxub thab chaw no " { Because it's where we started

all our Memories. And all these Scars, that can never be Erased.

If I could turn back the Hands of time, I would Need for us to Never :
held hands, run in the rain, cry together, laugh together, and Loved.

But Through you & with you; I Learned what True Love is.

So if time could turn back, I would Want Us to Always :

Look at each other, stand close, never let go & i would have held your

hand tighter so you could never disappear.

We were so young then, we had our heads in the sky. We Couldn't see the

storm that was heading our way. You've always told me " it will be okay "

& I believe you... Even though It's been years now. I know it's Okay.

But I'll always Miss you when i look at the stars.

And I'll always Love you, when the rain falls.

P.S ; I Miss You.
`` Ntuj Es Ntuj Es.... Cas koj tsis Nrog pab Kuv.

Es koj thiab li cia tus, kuv hlub hlub nrog luag mus. ``