Broken Dreams

[Moved from Myspace Blog]
Written; August 9, 2010 - Monday

[ i just needed to let out a few feelings before i go crazy. Thanx ]

It's been a long time since i last dreamt about you.

If i remember correctly it's been 3 years since we last said goodbye.

I never thought i would be right back here agian?

Did you think about me tonight? did you ask about me?

Perhaps the memories brought you back to me for a moment.

But last night, i dreamed about you. My best friend, my best half,

no one could never replace. You were so mad at me in my dream.

Are you still mad... i wonder... I woke up with sweats and tears.

I cried so hard, wondering why? is it just that time of the year.

Uknow? the time of the year where you get all emotional.

And every memory you have stacked up in the back of your

mind, somehow breaks free and comes rushing through.

We promised if we lost our way, the star will guide us back to each other.

That night as we looked into the starry night sky. I remember, holding

your arms so tight. I didn't want that night to end... maybe somehow

deep down. I already knew we'd be apart someday. The parting of a

lifetime that, even the stars could not lead me back to you.

I admit, there are days and nights. I'd go through so much. I'd race to the

phone, open it up to look for your number. And in my darkest moment

realize... your no longer there. I bet you have no idea how much, I Miss You.

How much i Really do Need you. There are times, I want to drive up to your

house. Knock on your door and you come out to hugg me, telling me

everything will be okay. You would never know anymore... But you 

changed my life in a way no one will never be able to do ever agian.

You took a piece of me, and re-placed it with something new as well.

My head is sometimes filled with so many questions; 

what if... and yet in the end. Your in another world,

another place and time That will never contain me agian.

My heart still Hurts when i think about you. When i think of all that we could

have been. If only we had tried a little More. mis-understood less, and forgive

one another. Maybe I'd still be holding your hands, as we watched the sunset

in our favorite park. Strolling by the lakeside, as you tell me your dreams of

having a family and a house by the streaming water. What a wonderful life

it would have been. If only i had realize then, what i know now. Instead of

walking away from you and calling those ideas silly. I should've looked

you in the eyes, and told you i felt the same way too. 

But No! life is not fair and Love, is a beautiful rose with thornes that tears a

person apart with no remorse. So we both left on bad terms, exchanging

un-needed hated words and all that was left was Pain in both our hearts.

And even when I wanted to find a way bak, i couldn't. I reached for your

hands. But you already grasped anothers hand. And when you apologize

for the mistakes you made. I couldn't look at you the same way. We both

needed time to heal both our hearts. But how long... and after days gone by...

It's turned into forever now.

Yog Hais tias muaj lwm tiam tiag. Thov cia kuv los dhia kom tau koj

ua ntev, koj dhiav kuv. Es cia kuv yog tus hais los lus HLUB, los lus NCO.

Kuv thiab tau nrog koj nyob mus tag ib sim neej. Vim kuv ntsib koj tos

qab, vim koj hlub kuv ua ntev kuv tau hlub koj lawm. Txog thaum kawg,

kuv thiab yog tus tau hlub thiab nco koj, Mus Tag sim neej no.

There are times, I still Look for you... 
even though i know your Gone.

~ I'll Miss YOU, Forever...