Exchanging Happiness & Pain

" LOVE is putting Someone Else's HAPPINESS before your OWN "

I'm really very confused these Past few days. Alot has happend in such a short

period of time. My heart doesn't seem to be in the Right Place.

In the past, I use to know exactly what i should do and where i should go.

The Choices i make is never wrong, and when i make a decision.

I usually Never go bak on my words. No matter if it's Good or Bad for me.

But right now... right now, i'm really very confused and lost.

Lord! please heLp guide my way and Light my ever so dark days.

Lately, I'm not very happy with any of the choices i've made or will make.

I dn't know what iam going to do and what are the right choices.

I've asked many friends and family for there opinions and thoughts.

I've been trying to balance out all the ideas and choices, but in the end.

I know it always will come back down to me and what i will do.

I wish life just wasn't so confusing and Un-fair sometimes.

I don't ever want to Hurt anyone, nor be hurt back. But life is full of sorrow and pain

No matter how you look at at, there has to always be some kind of sorrow to balance

out the  happiness. You can never have everything, be it YOU, ME, or THEM.

The world seems to always find some way to Balance life out with [pain=happiness] and

i dn't know what to do to make everyone happy. If i'm Happy, then the people around me is

full of sadness. If There Happy, then i'm the one who has to live with so much, Hate and

anger all the time. In my life, i have always tryed to pursue the thought that, I can make

everyone live happily. But! I know I Can't. It's not in my will and power too.

That is GOD's will and Power. That is Not something iam in control of and is

capable of stopping. Be it, come Good or Bad.

Really, i want to make everyone so happy. To give them all exactly what they want.

If i could, I would. So there would be no more pain in the world.

But i know " someone elses Happiness, is someone elses Pain "

And so as much as I Try to Put all the broken pieces of puzzles together.

It will never be a clean Fitted whole. There will always be scars and jagged edges

no matter what. But maybe it's Okays, because That's what makes the world

go round and PAIN! Pain is how we know we are alive and is an emotional living beinG.

If we're always Happy all the time, we'll be like a Robot who will never understand

what Losing something special is. Nor the Loss of someone Dear to your heart.

And so with the Bad, also comes the good in it. So, i guess i'll try to pik my self up from

all this depressing subject and situations. But I just Hope... I'll still be smiling in the end.

Be It " good or Bad " i will still cherish what i HAD, still Have, and Has been Given.

' Ur happiness is someone else's pain. 

Remember that the next time U wish to be happy.'

i really dn't know where this love is leading me. am i going to crash and burn. or am i going to find happiness. i really dn't know? But, Life is too short to not live it to the fullest. The road ahead looks rocky and bumpy. The future is Always Un-Certain. No matter, I'm going to Live for this 1 MOMENT. The one moment i have You, the one moment your holding my Heart. And even for jux One Minute, my Life finally feels complete, and my heart is finally Whole. I will forever cherish this Moment...