Confession [ Marriage ]

[Moved from Myspace Blog]
Written; October 28, 2009 - Wednesday

Hrm... i'm not sure where to start this one so i guess,

i'll just go ahead put it out in the Bold. >__<

Maybe alot of people around me, is wondering why??

A girl at my age isn't married yet, with a family of my Own.

Simple Answer ; It's Not for ME

No matter how i think about it, I never have or could imagine

myself as a married woman with a Family. You may say

" teng, you might one day " and i say! Uknow your probably right,

But To Me. Even as a child; to my teen years, till now, when every

other girls talking about how great there future would be

with there boyfriend, or there husband to be.

Mine Has never been the Same as That.

I guess I'm different, and it's just Me.

When every girl, dreams of that family with a house and a

white little fence. I'm always Thinking, thats Not the kind of life

for me, its even harder for me to imagine myself as a Mother.

It's just not the kinda life i want to live. To all the ones who have

and Can, all the more power to you.

But Too Me, i want to discover more then just that.

I've always had bigger Dreams.

And More too this meaningless life of ours, and 4 a Deeper

understanding. I'm still figureing out for myself, if this path,

will lead me to where i want to be one day.

ANd though i do not know where this road will Take me.

I know who i am and this is my Testimony. Make or break Me.

Iam fully satisfied with the way i Live my life,

even if it's not according to tradition.

When i am ready, when the right Day comes, with the right person,

and the right moment. Perhaps then... I will want less and settle for now.

But at this time of my life, i feel this isn't the end, but only my

Begginning to fulfilling my Destiny for ME.

In my darkest Moments i also realized,

a Man is never there!! but my Friends & Family.

I am not afraid but Just Done. Iam Not Alone, but Strong.

I am not ignorant, I have LEARNED.

I A M One step closer....